Trust

What a funny little word. So hard to gain, so easy to lose. Why is that exactly? Quote I found today: "Trust is like a vase...once it's broken, though you can fix it the vase will never be the same again." The thought seems really sad. I mean, "never the same." Really?! And yet, a part of me believes it to be true. So, what if it's not the same, can it possibly be better. Is that even possible? What needs to happen to regain trust in someone? Wish I had the answer. It's a question I seem to ponder a lot these days. Is it time apart to realize what that person means to you in life, which in turn may lead to letting the smaller stuff go? What finally makes the little voices in your head stop and say, "you're being ridiculous. get over it! or it's gonna get ruined anyway." I guess the answer lies in the next quote I found: "The key is to get to know people and trust them to be who they are. Instead, we trust people to be who we want them to be--and when they're not, we cry." Ok, so I had written a bit more on the subject at work but had an AHA moment on my drive home and decided to delete a lot. The thing is, I'm allowed to have the feelings that I have in the situation. They are there for a reason. Not something planned. Not something done on purpose. But the situation is what it is and my feelings are there. So, rather than dwell on why the questions won't stop, I'm gonna embrace my feelings and do what is best for me. Which is, allow myself to work through them and not feel guilty about any of it. My feelings are valid. I need to trust that. Hmm, I foresee a long night of writing ahead. I think the monster energy drink finally kicked in (really helpful, since I'm done at work already!)