Man, I know this day is supposed to get easier with time...but this year it kinda snuck up on me and I can't believe it's been nine years since my grandma passed away. I miss her dearly. With each passing year, I fear that I remember her less. That makes the situation even harder.
I didn't sleep much last night. Couldn't fall asleep. I was upset about something else and then the date dawned on me and I knew I'd be lucky to get a few hours in. It's going to be a long day traveling properties and Malee's tonight.
Guess I better go get started.
I'll light a candle for her tonight.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Friday, June 27, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Italy
So, today was supposed to be my last day of work for 10 days. Yep, tomorrow at the butt crack of dawn, I was supposed to be aboard an airplane to take me to the number one country on my list of "must visit." However, INS sucks and have yet to send Jana her citizenship papers she'd lost; so instead, we will be covering the office while everyone else is drinking the wine that does NOT give you a hangover (no sulfites.) Anyway, it was hard being at work today. The morning wasn't so bad...then everyone started saying goodbye and telling us how much they'll miss us and the tears came. I got a lump in my throat when they gave us each an hour massage because they wanted to thank us in some way. It'll be a weird week at work.
Ok, so that was depressing and I'm feeling better...we went and had drinks and sushi after work. But what made me smile the most was remembering last night...and what a wonderful man I have in my life. He got major kudos from all of my coworkers when I told the story of one of the sweetest romantic gestures anyone has ever done. I even had coworkers say, "so men from romantic movies really do exist."
First, we went and celebrated Jon's birthday with some dinner and a movie. Then we get home and Joey goes upstairs and gets a hat and blazer on and starts acting like a flight attendant. He takes me on a trip in a plane (ok, it was a chair in the middle of a room)...but it may as well have been a real one. I was treated with in-flight entertainment, turbulance (joey shaking the chair) and couldn't stop giggling. One of the movies was a perfect enactment of a cat trying to wake up his owner for some cuddling. Anyway, funnier if you actually saw the video. Next, we get to our destination, I walk to our room, open the door...only to step into my own Italy. Candlelit, Italian music in the background, a poster of Venice with pics of us in the Gondola (sp?)...and then the date that will be, with everything Italy...pasta, breadsticks, Italian Soda, wine, chocolate, Italian beer and Tiramisu dessert. I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time. It was honestly the most thoughtful thing anyone has ever done for me and it really helped with the situation. I know my first experience of really seeing Italy will now be with Joey...and I very much look forward to it...but until then, I'll take Joey's version of Italy and treasure it. Wow, do I have a keeper or what?! :)
Total side note...I bought Sadie a different version of her presciption food today and she loves it...so excited, I was worried for a while with the weight she's lost since her bladder stones became an issue.
Today has had its ups and downs...but when all is said and done, I know everything happens for a reason. Not to mention, I got a small taste of Italy from the sweetest man.
Ok, so that was depressing and I'm feeling better...we went and had drinks and sushi after work. But what made me smile the most was remembering last night...and what a wonderful man I have in my life. He got major kudos from all of my coworkers when I told the story of one of the sweetest romantic gestures anyone has ever done. I even had coworkers say, "so men from romantic movies really do exist."
First, we went and celebrated Jon's birthday with some dinner and a movie. Then we get home and Joey goes upstairs and gets a hat and blazer on and starts acting like a flight attendant. He takes me on a trip in a plane (ok, it was a chair in the middle of a room)...but it may as well have been a real one. I was treated with in-flight entertainment, turbulance (joey shaking the chair) and couldn't stop giggling. One of the movies was a perfect enactment of a cat trying to wake up his owner for some cuddling. Anyway, funnier if you actually saw the video. Next, we get to our destination, I walk to our room, open the door...only to step into my own Italy. Candlelit, Italian music in the background, a poster of Venice with pics of us in the Gondola (sp?)...and then the date that will be, with everything Italy...pasta, breadsticks, Italian Soda, wine, chocolate, Italian beer and Tiramisu dessert. I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time. It was honestly the most thoughtful thing anyone has ever done for me and it really helped with the situation. I know my first experience of really seeing Italy will now be with Joey...and I very much look forward to it...but until then, I'll take Joey's version of Italy and treasure it. Wow, do I have a keeper or what?! :)
Total side note...I bought Sadie a different version of her presciption food today and she loves it...so excited, I was worried for a while with the weight she's lost since her bladder stones became an issue.
Today has had its ups and downs...but when all is said and done, I know everything happens for a reason. Not to mention, I got a small taste of Italy from the sweetest man.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Feeling like myself again...
The last couple days have been hard. The realization that we don't get to go to Italy in 8 days has made me more sad than I care to admit. Sadie has two giant sized kidney stones that would be large by human standards, much less a ten pound dog. The little money I had saved has now gone completely out the window and sometimes I wonder if LA in January is possible. Yep, it's been a bit stressful.
And then, I realize how wonderful life is. I have the most amazing person by my side, through even my dark times, telling me everything will be ok. Thankfully those dark times are few, but it never hurts to know there is so much love and support when it's needed. We had a heart to heart yesterday. And though a lot of stuff was still left unanswered in my head, the talk made me realize not everything needs a definite black and white...a lot of things in life are shades of gray. Not to mention, one thing that got answered was hard to take...but that's only because I knew how much truth was behind the statement. And though the truth hurts to hear sometimes, it's refreshing to know that we can have any conversation and come away smiling.
As much as it scares me that I've found the person I want to be with for the rest of my life, I sit back and smile realizing not many people get to experience that. To know, that everyday when they wake up, they are waking up next to their best friend. I look forward to all of our firsts...and the must "to do" list that we have yet to actual create.
In hard times, its rare that I depend on anyone but my immediate family. And then I realized that Joey is that for me. And I am grateful everyday that he is a part of my life...the part that makes me shine brighter and has me laughing constantly.
I know this is a sappy entry...but I'm not going to apologize...I want to scream out to the world I AM IN LOVE and can only wish the same happiness on everyone around me. Because there truly is no bigger high in this world. To know that you're walking hand in hand with someone, on a path that leads to who knows where...and every moment you're in this together.
Yep, I'm out of my gloom. It'll be hard not being in Italy for ten days in the coming weeks...but Joey did promise me a trip by the end of the year (I'm holding you to it babe!) Now I just gotta send happy thoughts to my pup and hope the money I'm spending will help her. Oh, and strange coincidence...the day I was so stressed about money, I got a call from an agent that I was pursuing 8 months ago...interested in taking me on. Yep, I'd say that's a sign of more great news to come.
And then, I realize how wonderful life is. I have the most amazing person by my side, through even my dark times, telling me everything will be ok. Thankfully those dark times are few, but it never hurts to know there is so much love and support when it's needed. We had a heart to heart yesterday. And though a lot of stuff was still left unanswered in my head, the talk made me realize not everything needs a definite black and white...a lot of things in life are shades of gray. Not to mention, one thing that got answered was hard to take...but that's only because I knew how much truth was behind the statement. And though the truth hurts to hear sometimes, it's refreshing to know that we can have any conversation and come away smiling.
As much as it scares me that I've found the person I want to be with for the rest of my life, I sit back and smile realizing not many people get to experience that. To know, that everyday when they wake up, they are waking up next to their best friend. I look forward to all of our firsts...and the must "to do" list that we have yet to actual create.
In hard times, its rare that I depend on anyone but my immediate family. And then I realized that Joey is that for me. And I am grateful everyday that he is a part of my life...the part that makes me shine brighter and has me laughing constantly.
I know this is a sappy entry...but I'm not going to apologize...I want to scream out to the world I AM IN LOVE and can only wish the same happiness on everyone around me. Because there truly is no bigger high in this world. To know that you're walking hand in hand with someone, on a path that leads to who knows where...and every moment you're in this together.
Yep, I'm out of my gloom. It'll be hard not being in Italy for ten days in the coming weeks...but Joey did promise me a trip by the end of the year (I'm holding you to it babe!) Now I just gotta send happy thoughts to my pup and hope the money I'm spending will help her. Oh, and strange coincidence...the day I was so stressed about money, I got a call from an agent that I was pursuing 8 months ago...interested in taking me on. Yep, I'd say that's a sign of more great news to come.
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