Feeling like myself again...

The last couple days have been hard. The realization that we don't get to go to Italy in 8 days has made me more sad than I care to admit. Sadie has two giant sized kidney stones that would be large by human standards, much less a ten pound dog. The little money I had saved has now gone completely out the window and sometimes I wonder if LA in January is possible. Yep, it's been a bit stressful.

And then, I realize how wonderful life is. I have the most amazing person by my side, through even my dark times, telling me everything will be ok. Thankfully those dark times are few, but it never hurts to know there is so much love and support when it's needed. We had a heart to heart yesterday. And though a lot of stuff was still left unanswered in my head, the talk made me realize not everything needs a definite black and white...a lot of things in life are shades of gray. Not to mention, one thing that got answered was hard to take...but that's only because I knew how much truth was behind the statement. And though the truth hurts to hear sometimes, it's refreshing to know that we can have any conversation and come away smiling.

As much as it scares me that I've found the person I want to be with for the rest of my life, I sit back and smile realizing not many people get to experience that. To know, that everyday when they wake up, they are waking up next to their best friend. I look forward to all of our firsts...and the must "to do" list that we have yet to actual create.

In hard times, its rare that I depend on anyone but my immediate family. And then I realized that Joey is that for me. And I am grateful everyday that he is a part of my life...the part that makes me shine brighter and has me laughing constantly.

I know this is a sappy entry...but I'm not going to apologize...I want to scream out to the world I AM IN LOVE and can only wish the same happiness on everyone around me. Because there truly is no bigger high in this world. To know that you're walking hand in hand with someone, on a path that leads to who knows where...and every moment you're in this together.

Yep, I'm out of my gloom. It'll be hard not being in Italy for ten days in the coming weeks...but Joey did promise me a trip by the end of the year (I'm holding you to it babe!) Now I just gotta send happy thoughts to my pup and hope the money I'm spending will help her. Oh, and strange coincidence...the day I was so stressed about money, I got a call from an agent that I was pursuing 8 months ago...interested in taking me on. Yep, I'd say that's a sign of more great news to come.